Looking for a job sucks.
But it especially sucks when you’re in the middle of a pandemic.
But it also also sucks when you’re at an associate level and it seems that all the positions opening are entry level (because people want cheap labor) or a management position that you aren’t yet qualified for but to get qualified you need to stay at your current job but you have zero motivation to keep up with it.
holy run on.
Sorry.
I have a career I want to pursue. Like I’ve said in my first post last Summer, I want to be a copywriter. But the thing is, I need to carve out time to designate to building my portfolio. I finished a course at AdHouseNYC and enrolled in a second course. I have a lot of good material its just the process now of buying a wesbsite and now crafting out these ads and copy. In the meantime, my current position is literally draining me and killing me slowly with crippling anxiety. Ever wake up randomly at 3 am and can’t breathe and the only thing on your mind is work the next day? Like, why is this happening to me? I never thought I would be in this position, and I can go on in greater detail as to what bothers me. As a natural skeptic and pro player at devils advocate, I have therapist’d myself and tried turning all the negatives into positives and how to improve my current position. The negative though is outweighing the positive.
Back to the original reason for this ramble. I am looking for a position of less stress, better culture, better workplace environment, so I can be happy and focus on my future goals of being a copywriter and building up my portfolio. Is that so hard to ask?! I guess so.
Damn, I miss writing on here. This is such good therapy to just brain dump in my own place. I don’t even care if no one reads this this just feels right.
All I have right now. I needed somewhere (that’s not my mom or girlfriend) to dump my current state of anxiety and stress.
I have another idea for a post about pens that I haven’t gotten around to yet but the idea is brewing heavy. Keep an eye out for it.
cheers —
